The Exhausting Work of Keeping It All Together
You want to hold it all together. You try to. You work hard to.
And still… you make mistakes. You get tired. But people still see you as the one who can juggle all the balls.
You want to be a good parent. A good partner. A good daughter or son. A good friend. A good colleague or boss. You care about doing things well—not to impress anyone, but because these things matter to you.
So you keep trying.
You get the kids to school on time. You meet the deadline. You remember the birthday, show up for the event, answer the email, make the appointment. You drive across town on I-470 to get to the thing you said you’d attend, then you drive back home and start on the next thing.
And little by little, you start to see the cracks.
A ball gets dropped here. A promise slips there. You forget something you never would have forgotten before. You snap at someone you love because you have nothing left.
But here’s the thing: you see the cracks. Others don’t.
Why Does Everyone Think I’m Fine?
Because you’re good at this. Too good.
People don’t see the effort it takes. They see the results. They see someone who shows up, delivers, and makes things happen. They may even tell you how easy you make it look.
“I don’t know how you do it all.”
“You’re amazing—I could never manage everything you manage.”
“You make it look so effortless.”
And yes, that feels good. It’s nice to be seen as capable. To be trusted. To be the person people count on.
But it can also feel like a trap.
Because right after the compliment often comes the ask. The extra project. The favor. The “since you’re so good at this…” request that lands on your already full plate.
And you say yes—because that’s what you do. Because saying no can feel terrible.
If you relate to the “always on” pressure, you might also connect with anxiety that looks like success on the outside: What Does High-Functioning Anxiety Look Like?
What Happens When You’re Always Juggling?
You start to live in fear of dropping a ball that really matters.
The small drops—forgotten errands, late replies—sting, but you recover. What keeps you up at night is the fear that one day you’ll miss something big. Something you can’t undo.
Your kid’s play. Your partner’s important moment. A work deadline that has real consequences. Your own health.
So you keep going. You push through because stopping feels more dangerous than continuing.
You tell yourself you’ll rest later—after the busy season, after the kids are older, after this one project is done.
But “later” never comes.
If you’re trying to figure out whether this is anxiety, burnout, or both, this can help: Work Anxiety vs. Burnout: How to Tell the Difference and When to Get Help
Why Can’t I Just Relax?
Because your nervous system has learned that relaxing isn’t safe.
When you’ve spent years keeping everything afloat, your brain adapts. It stays ready—always scanning, always planning, always bracing for the next thing.
Even when you get a quiet moment, your body doesn’t know what to do with it. You feel restless. Guilty. Like you should be doing something.
You might take the family to Longview Lake or plan a walk through Legacy Park, hoping to unwind. But your mind is still running the to-do list. You’re there, but you’re not really there.
If this sounds like you, you may appreciate this perspective: The Part of You That Won’t Let You Rest (And Why It’s Trying to Help)
If I’m Managing, Why Am I So Unhappy?
Because managing and living aren’t the same.
You can keep all the plates spinning and still feel empty. You can check every box and still feel like something is missing. You can look successful and still feel tired, disconnected, and quietly miserable.
You might have moments of satisfaction—when a project goes well, when your kid hugs you, when someone thanks you. But underneath, there’s a constant hum of stress. A sense that you’re always behind. Always catching up.
That isn’t how life is supposed to feel.
Why Is It So Hard to Ask for Help?
Because asking for help can feel like admitting failure—especially when everyone sees you as capable.
You’ve built an identity around being the one who handles things. Letting that go, even a little, can feel like losing part of yourself.
There’s also fear:
If you stop holding everything, will it all fall apart?
If you admit you’re struggling, will people see you differently?
If you let down your guard, will you be able to pick it back up?
So you keep going. Alone.
What Would It Feel Like to Put Something Down?
Scary at first.
And then maybe… relief.
Imagine driving home after work and not running through your mental checklist. Imagine sitting at your kid’s game and actually watching—not just being there while your mind is elsewhere.
Imagine a Saturday where you don’t feel guilty for resting. Where you can walk through downtown Lee’s Summit, grab a coffee, and not feel like you should be doing something more productive.
This isn’t about becoming someone who doesn’t care. You’ll still care.
You’ll just have more space for joy, rest, and the things that matter.
How Do I Start to Change This?
By understanding what’s driving the pattern—and building a different relationship with yourself.
This isn’t just about doing less. It’s about understanding why doing less feels so hard. Why rest feels unsafe. Why your worth feels tied to your output.
This is where therapy can help.
Insight-oriented therapy can help you understand where this “I have to hold it all together” belief came from.
Internal Family Systems (IFS) helps you understand the parts of you that push, brace, and never want to let anyone down: Internal Family Systems (IFS) in Lee’s Summit, MO
EMDR can help if past experiences trained your body to stay on high alert: EMDR Trauma Therapy Services
If anxiety is a big part of the picture, learn more here: Anxiety Treatment in Lee’s Summit & Columbia, MO
What Does It Look Like When Things Start to Shift?
It looks like having more space—inside and out.
It might look like:
Saying no and tolerating the discomfort
Letting something be good enough instead of perfect
Asking for help without feeling like a failure
Noticing the world didn’t end when you dropped a small ball
Feeling tired at the end of the day—but not depleted to your core
Progress is often gradual. You may not notice it at first. But over time, you start handling life differently.
Therapy for Burnout and Anxiety in Lee’s Summit, Missouri
At Aspire Counseling, we work with adults who look fine on the outside but feel overwhelmed on the inside.
We offer in-person sessions at our Lee’s Summit office and online therapy across Missouri.
If you’re ready, reach out for a free consultation here: Contact Aspire Counseling
Or call 573-328-2288.
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About the Author
This article was written by Jessica Oliver, LCSW, founder and Clinical Director of Aspire Counseling.
Jessica wrote this, but you don’t have to do this work alone. Our Lee’s Summit team has therapists trained in evidence-based approaches like EMDR, IFS, and other therapies that help with anxiety, trauma-related patterns, and burnout. If you’re looking for support, we’ll help you find the right fit.
